It's good to get on a roll. There's something about feeling in the zone that seems to make things a bit easier. I really can't tell you what the difference is right now as opposed to a week ago. Is it that I posted my weight online? Maybe. It could just be that I didn't give up, and eventually the re-start process is going to kick in again.
Doesn't matter. All that matters is that right now I am where I want to be. Or at least I'm heading in the direction in which I wish to be travelling.
I find myself obsessing over what I did and did not eat. I think that from now on, unless it's a massive thing, I am not going to be posting every single breath mint that I decided not to eat. (Yes, that was an exaggeration). I will, however, continue to post about ups and downs, and the big victories.
I mentioned in my first post yesterday that I have something that I am visualizing when I want some motivation...
Last July we went on a week-long pseudo-camp as a family reunion. (I say pseudo camp, because those who are "roughing it" are in cabins, and those who are not are in what amounts to a hotel. But it IS in the mountains!) It was a fantastic time.
I was at pretty much my lowest weight. I had been running quite a bit and was in great shape as well. I decided to take a hike to a waterfall. The hike is about 1.5 miles either direction. It might be 2. I wanted to do it pretty fast. So I did some trail running for the first time in my life.
Still, I took it sort of easy - just a nice steady jog for some of it. Uphill, mostly. It was a blast.
I looked at the falls for a while. I watched the kids playing in the water. I felt great.
After a while I started back. I did the same thing - part jogging, part walking. Nice and easy, while still getting my heart rate up.
When I finally got back to camp, I was at the bottom of a flight of log steps. It's probably about 3 flights of normal stairs, possibly more. Well, I wanted to finish quickly. When I hit the steps, I ran up them as fast as I could.
When I got to the top, I was breathing hard, I was a little tired, but in the end I felt AMAZING. I was in shape and I knew it.
That moment right there is what I keep visualizing when I need a bit of motivation. I have been there. Less than a year ago. And I know that I can be there again.
I just need to keep on doing what I know I need to keep on doing.