I appear to be, for now, an all-or-nothing kind of guy. I can either go strict and lose weight, or I'm an all-out all-you-can-stuff-in-the-pie-hole type of guy. This sort of disturbs me. It says some things about my issues with food that frankly I don't really want to think about. And yet, I know that eventually I will.
What does it mean long-term if I have truly serious addictions to food? What am I going to have to do/change/be to not let that particular demon take charge again?
I'm not yet ready to face it. But I know that I will have to. Soon I will start working on it.